Roadblocks

I have been sailing along and having a great time - I was thrilled on Friday to see that I had hit the 20 lb mark ...I had a really great expressive movement class with Rebecca - NIA was cancelled as Kate injured herself gardening and needs to take a few days off.

So how is it that I am now experiencing a roadblock? Perhaps it's because it's a holiday weekend here in the US as well as in Bermuda. It's also Nita's birthday, Butch & Ally's wedding and XL's Global Day of Giving. I am enjoying this time for myself -but really felt like I was missing out on things. Seeing pictures of my team's efforts for the Global Day of Giving and the wedding - was wonderful -and I found myself getting a little teary eyed.

As I looked around me ... it wasn't quite the same. On Friday evening I opted to sign up to take the shuttle to the movies (it's a weekly event here at Structure House) and saw the new Indiana Jones movie ...have to admit I was really disappointed with it - the first one remains the best in my opinion. I had a small popcorn as planned - but decided that I would also have some chocolate with it - I opted for raisinettes - raisins are on the menu here ...so figured it would be better than any of the other varieties. I know ... my feeble attempt to justify my choice.

As to be expected the treat showed up on the scale - I noted it in the diary - and was back on track on Saturday. I did just over an hour on the treadmill as well as a full strength training session with Randy. My knees have been bothering me a bit - so opted to not exercise today - figuring that my body would enjoy the rest.

Although I've been doing well, I found this weekend to be challenging. I found myself craving some away time and really needing a break away from here. I've been contemplating renting a car - and decided to rent a car for the next 3 weeks. I don't anticipate driving it daily - but want to have the freedom to get out and about.

The car rental company was closing early because it's Memorial Day Weekend - and didn't have a compact available - so upgraded me (at no additional cost) to a larger car. It feels like a tank - so will swap it on Tuesday. I was a little apprehensive at first but soon adjusted to the extra dimension and went exploring this afternoon. All in all, I had a good time - and returned feeling refreshed and ready to tackle the week ahead.

For those of us that have been there for a month - we've had a lot of discussions at meal times on foods that we haven't had for a while and what we've been craving. For one - he's been craving McDonald's Fries - another Ice Cream and then we got into discussions on cakes! For me ...I was wanting anything but Structure House food. I've been battling with my inner rebel - and today I decided that enough was enough - and that I needed to just commit to going out and having something.

As I was driving around I was thinking about what I felt like ... I decided that if I saw a Wendy's . . . then that is what I would have. Wouldn't you know it - as soon as I made the decision - in minutes a sign appeared on my left to notify me that there was a Wendy's at the next traffic light - traffic opened up and I had a clear path direct to Wendy's! I pulled up, parked and in I went. I had my favorite - a single with cheese, lettuce + mayo, small fries and a diet coke - 770 calories! The chap at the counter handed me my tray and the fries were pale and looked disgusting - I figured that if I was going to off structure -then they better be good - so asked if they could be cooked more (he said oh ...you want them to be crispy ..."Yes, please!" I quickly replied).

I savored each bite - it tasted yummy and was surprised to find that I was feeling full and was unable to eat all of my crispy fries. I didn't really notice how salty it was when I was eating ...but am certainly noticing it now - hours after the deed - I feel as if I have been drinking salt water! YEECHHHH!! Generally ...feel a little sluggish. So ...as much as I enjoyed doing something unstructured - I'm going to have to definitely find a better way to satiate the urge as the after effects of Wendy's make it clear to me that it's just not worth it!

Tomorrow is another day - we'll see how much of a toll this will have on my weekly total - all will be revealed when I update the gift ticker tomorrow!

Here's to a great week for us all!

Lots of love,

Norma